lonely

you don't know how i feel. what am i feeling when there's no you beside me. not even beside me, you always there in my mind. why? why you always ruin me then makes reminding me then makes every-thing's running not to be perfect, not going well. everything what i've done always reminding me of you. just one thing, i want you to be my self when i feel like this. you know why? because i miss you, and i feel lonely by my self when you're maybe not even think of me and seems like so far away from me

:'(

don't talk, don't don't do anything

sometimes i felt such a waste, 

putting so much effort to get attention, 

though is not good without action

welcome home darling

eh kamis kemaren ternyata aldo pulang looh, seneng deh hihi. ternyata firasatnya nesya benaaar (8) nesya pernah bilang pas hari rabu gt kan aku kebingungan gt deh gara2 aldo ga pulang2. daaan nesya bilang "tasy, ko firasatku aldo pulang besok yaa" dan ternyata jeng jeng itu benar! tapi kan pas malem gitu jam 9 aldo nya belom pulang2 gt deh terus aku kira kalo udh jam segitu udh pasrah aja deh paling pulangnya sabtu, soalnya nesya sempet bilang "iya tasy, aku sih punya dua pendapat, 1. mungkin mereka hp nya mati gara2 lg di pesawat, 2. mungkin mamanya aldo mau mereka pulang hari sabtu aja soalnya emg mamanya tuh ngga mau tanggung2 gt, kan sekalian tuh sabtu lagi libur" gt katanya, dan aku pun pasrah saja -_- tapi jam stgh 10 apa ya kalo ngga salaaah, aldo OL! wikiki dan yg ngasih tau rana gt kan. terus aku bingung gt deh, bener ngga itu dia haha masih ngga percaya. mana waktu sblm aldo pulang gt nesya sempet gt sms aku pake nmr esianya dia kan aku ngga nge-save, dia nyamar gt jadi aldo awalnya aku udh ga percaya gt soalnya aldo ngga pernah nge sms aku terus manggil namaku, daaaan nesya pun ketawan -_- katanya dia mau menghibur aku hihi berhasil loh sedikit nesya makasih yaaa :p terus pas aldo ol pun dia menyapa aku, karna aku tak berani menyapa dia duluan dan anehnya dia ngga percaya itu aku gara2 dp ku bedaaa yaoloh:

aldo: woi lu

tasya: hah 

aldo: ini syp?

tasya: ini syp? 

aldo: fotonya beda dah

tasya: masa? 

aldo: serius 

tasya: yauda ganti

aldo: ganti dong 

aldo: ini syp sh woi 

tasya: heh aldo 

aldo: apa sayang 

aldo: hahaha

tasya: ih kenapa sih tadi

aldo: kangeeen gua parah

aldo: knp td? 

tasya: ya kamu, nanya aku syapa haduuuh

tasya: iya aku apa lagi doain kamu stiap hari loh jangan salah

aldo: abisnya foto km aneh 

aldo: bedaaa haha

-_- hahahaha tapi dia udh pulang alhamdulilah sujud syukur aku dia kembali dengan selamat bersama keluarganya hihi daaan aku di beliin oleh2 loh haha asik yaaa:

aldo: aku udh beliin oleh2 buat km loh

aldo: yg beli mamahku lg

tasya:haaah mamah km?

aldo: aku lg tdr tb2 dibangunin, trs ngmg, "nih buat tasya"

tasya: ko bisa?

aldo: bisa dong haha

tasya: waaaw cie mamaaaah

tasya: makasih ya mah

aldo: loooooohhh

aldo: hahaha muaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

aldo: aku kgn buset

tasya: gapapa dong mamahku juga hahahaha ngarep

tasya: iya aku juga yaaaaaaaaaaang bgt malah muah

aldo: hahahaha ngarep2

tasya: yauda deh ngga ngarep

aldo: muahmuahmuah

aldo: ngarep aja yang haha

tasya: ngga ah takut haha

wakakaka, oke deh dadaaaaac -_-

I must be realize, if something going on to me will not happening to you. we don't even have the same feeling as well, maybe not anymore. let me ask you, are you really love me like you did before? actually no one could make fall in love like you do, only you can take me sailing
in your deepest eyes. I'm asking when will you be mine, for the last breath i take and say i love you while holding your hand when I'm lay on your lap, then please tell me if what I'm feelin' about you isn't some mistake, if you really love me :')

sedih dan kangen :(

hari iniiiiiiii gue ngga masuk sekolah nih, gara2 yang kemaren jatoh itu masih sakit banget tulang ekornyaaa. jadinya tadi pagi pas gue udh mau mandi disuruh ngga usah masuk sama nyokap, yaudah. terus dikasih minyak tawon gitu, sekarang udah agak lumayan sih, cuma katanya nanti mau ke dokter gitu teruuus td gue sempet chat sama tabitha ngomong:

(7:43 AM) tasya:	tabitha saaakit?
(7:46 AM) Tab sakit:	Iyaaa huhu
(7:47 AM) tasya:	waah cepet sembuh ya kamu dimana?
(7:47 AM) Tab sakit:	iya tasy makasih
(7:47 AM) Tab sakit:	Kamu juga ya
(7:47 AM) Tab sakit:	aku lg dirumah
(7:47 AM) Tab sakit:	kamu?
(7:48 AM) tasya:	aku juga lagi dirumah nih
(7:48 AM) tasya:	iya sama2 taab, kamu sakit apa?
(7:48 AM) Tab sakit:	Gatau, gaenak badan aja
(7:48 AM) Tab sakit:	haha
(7:48 AM) tasya:	ooh haha oke deh tab
(7:48 AM) Tab sakit:	kamu sakit apa?
(7:49 AM) tasya:	aku kemaren jatoh gitu di hall jadi tulang ekor ku masih sakit sampe sekarang
(7:49 AM) Tab sakit:	eh aku juga pernah gt loh
(7:49 AM) Tab sakit:	eh ternyata malah jd penyakit
(7:49 AM) tasya:	hah penyakit gimana?
(7:50 AM) Tab sakit:	namanya remathisme
(7:50 AM) Tab sakit:	semacam rematik tp bukan
(7:51 AM) Tab sakit:	jadi kalo duduk selalu sakit
(7:51 AM) tasya:	ohya? kamu sampe sekarang kea gitu?
(7:51 AM) Tab sakit:	aku pertama tama kesakitan
(7:51 AM) Tab sakit:	tp lama2 kebiasa
(7:51 AM) Tab sakit:	iya
(7:51 AM) Tab sakit:	huff
(7:51 AM) Tab sakit:	haha
(7:51 AM) tasya:	oooh ya ampun nah terus itu akibatnya apa?
(7:52 AM) Tab sakit:	gak kenapa napa sih sebenernya
(7:52 AM) Tab sakit:	cuma mengganggu aja
(7:53 AM) tasya:	iya ya? abisnya kan ada yg bilang kalo jatoh kea gitu bisa buta lah gt2 tab aku jd takut
(7:54 AM) Tab sakit:	Ya tergantung parah atau nggaknya tasy
(7:54 AM) Tab sakit:	kamu periksa aja deh
(7:54 AM) Tab sakit:	siapa tau ada sesuatu gt
(7:54 AM) tasya:	kamu waktu di periksa gimana?
(7:54 AM) Tab sakit:	semoga gak
(7:54 AM) Tab sakit:	haha
(7:54 AM) tasya:	amiin semoga ngga deh hehe
(7:54 AM) Tab sakit:	Biasa aja
(7:55 AM) Tab sakit:	Amiiin gitu deeeh ya lumayan takut sih tapi semoga ngga, daaaaaaaaan aldo kemaren sama sekali ngga ngabarin gue loh, gue ngga tau dia udah pulang apa belom. katanya kemaren tapi manaa? hp nya udh 5 hari ngga bisa ditelfon, kan kangen :( sampe hari ini juga nih gue ngga tau gimana kabarnya, tadi pas dikasih minyak tawon sama nyokap juga gue nangis gt kan nahan sakit sih, dikiit tapinya nangis sebagian besar gara2 aldo ngga ngabarin gueeee duh aldo mana cepet pulang yaaaaa :')

cleaning service nakal (?)

tau ngga siiiih hari ini ngga enak bgt loh sumpah, ngga banget juga sih. sebenernya, kan hari ini aldo pulang dari malaysiaaaa tapi sampe skarang belom ada kabar juga loh jadi penasaran nih kapan pulangnya duuuuh. dan yg paling malesin, tadi gue jatoh di GSG, sakit banget paraaaaah. jadi awalnya kan kita abis warm-up gt. abis itu nanti tuh materinya lompat jauh, nah kan sebelomnya latian dulu individual, terus gerakannya tuh abis ngayunin kaki 3 kali langsung loncat terus mendaratnya harus jongkok gt kan. nah udah tuh kan yg cewe2 bareng semuanya, terus pas gue udah mau mendarat malah kepleset terus jatohnya duduk keraas bgt itu terus kena tulang belakang, sakit banget sampe kerasa di ulu hati gt dah. itu tuh ternyata gara2 licin abis di pel, ya mana gua tau yakan orang ngga kliatan, makanya td guru OR gua juga lansung ngomong gt ke cleaning service nya, udh tau ada yg mau olah raga kok masih di pel siiih. terus guru olah raga gua langsung nyamperin gitu kan, terus langsung disuruh tiduran tapi waktu itu juga gue masih nahan pake tangan gitu saking sakitnya ih parah banget itu. akhirnya guru gue nyruh gue ke UKS disuruh dianterin juga sama tenia adia, katanya takut memar. akhirnya pas jalan ke UKS kan lumayan tuh jauhnya, mana ujan lagi. punggung gue rasanya udah panaaaas gitu ih ngga enak. terus pas nyampe langsung di kompres pake air dingin, tambah aja ngilu. terus dikasih minyak tawon, mana nyokap gua ditelfonin ngga bisa2 lagi kerumah juga ngga bisa. yauda deh akhirnya gua tiduran di UKS 2 jam gitu dari jam 10.00 sampe jam 12an lewat pas mau solat gt kan. mana adia bilang "tasy kalo tulang lo retak terus patah gimana?" hhhh kesel deh haha, terus tenia bilang "ih adia gimana sih dia lagi kaya gini juga" pegel juga loh 2 jam gitu tengkurep terus, abisnya kalo gerak dikit kaya masih sakit gituuu ampun deh nih dasar CLEANING SERVICE JAHAT!

am i going to be yours forever?

when I'm quite, millions of things are running in my mind
when I'm not arguing, I'm thinking a deeply
when I'm look at you with eyes full of questions, I'm wondering how long you will be around
when I'm answer "I'm fine" after a few seconds, I'm actually not at all fine
when I'm stare at you, I'm wondering why you are lying
when I'm lay on your chest, I'm wishing for you to be my best forever
when I wants to see you everyday, I want to be pampered
when I says "I love you" I really mean it
when I says "I miss you" no one in this world can miss you more than that
Life only comes around once, make sure we spend it with the right person, find a guy,
who calls you beautiful instead of hot
who calls you back when you hang up on him
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. wait for the guy,
who kisses your forehead
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats
who holds your hand in front of his friends
who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you, and
who turns to his friend and says "that's her!"

and now I really found you, this what's inside what am I feel about you, Aldo. I love you so much. am i really going to be yours forever?

selfishness

so that's what your opinion about me? great! lets see. why are you so selfish to me? and pretend like you know. yes, actually I still don't know yet if is it true or not. but time will show us who's right and wrong doesn't it? everything that you say to me, it's so showing you that you're really know everything, anything about me well in fact you're not! you just comment about me from another position, and doesn't want to be lose. how come you become like that? jealous? now, just see what's going on next. REMEMBER, don't get into my life, don't ever annoying me and treat me like your toys, since I still with HIM

wrong

do i really have to stay alone? six? it means lot of days for me. actually, sometimes i feel like you don't care. but I'm wrong, you aren't. i just want to open up my feeling also everything what's on my mind. i always do anything for you even it's hard for me to do. but when i know you will do what i did, then you don't! I just don't know anything about you, maybe? I'm suppose feel the same as you in every condition, especially when you're happy