choices

choices, i just have two choices. yea at last i don't really want to lose him, but i realize, if letting go was the best. then i'll try to let go

every pray "if he really mine, please turn back him like previously, a boy who i really loved, who i could share my life with. but if he doesn't, please keep away him from me, i don't want to have this pressure for so long. let my heart give him willingly for not being 'us' again, and alive without depend on him, accepting if he really have to go away from me"

God, could you please speed up this time, i don't want cry for along night.
let him know my feeling