disappointed

then, today i must be felt happy. after waiting patiently for more than 2 months, now i've met aldo when actually is not for a long time. but i really have to be grateful that God have bless my wishes, i thought your change, i thought we'll appreciate each other, i thought we could be more harmonious, i thought we both have made changes.

but, really i dont felt any joyfulness that i should feel for. i dont feel that he will hold my hand like usually, share our laughter together.... today, there's none. i got nothing from him, one more time. he doesn't change, at all! oh god, is this the sign if i really have to live without him anymore?


*i cant take a hold of my self, i cant take control of my feeling for letting you go, when actually i must. now, it's really hard to being around you, like what have we done before, i miss you... do